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Life is like a box of chocolate… haha.. cerita Forrest Gump ka quote ya owh… anyway, I don’t know if this article is going to make sense to you but I will write it anyway… I am at the moment in the quiet of the night looking, searching for bits and pieces of my past, lost self that thumbing through old journal I found this… try to digest it if you can…

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15th July 2005

I was reading a simulation thesis and my mind keep nagging me to write this down. I’ve been thinking about this quite a lot.

This world, defined as Dunia… hrmm how do I go about this..?

Lets say

world = dunia = cyberspace

** Cyberspace is equivalent to a linear program as in compared to the real world. [just follow along, bear with my mathematical-IT mind for a bit]

** in cyberspace, we interacted with each other via text, emails, forum, chatspace etc… [I did not mention Facebook or Twitter coz those two were unheard of back then]

** We are actually there in cyberspace, but at the same time we are not. Our consciousness, how we are responsive towards others, interacting with each other, makes us ‘being’ there in cyberspace.

** I think that is how our souls are connected to this world. much like how we are connected to cyberspace. our physical body is our profile, our avatar. our consciousness is here, but our actual self, our soul, are not here.

** There is an ayat in the Quran that says all of us are in a box individually.

** there is also in Hadith, I don’t quite remember but I might be wrong about Hadith, but Al-Ghazali if I am not mistaken (I don’t quite remember) says something like our souls are not here in our body, it doesn’t have any shape and are not confined by space and time.

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okay it might not make so much sense, but what i was trying to say is, when we interacted with people on cyberspace, when we chat, when we write blogs, commenting on pictures or videos, discussing a topic in forums, our presence are there… but each of us are somewhere in a cubicle or at home, or on a beach, or on a train, on a bus, each of us are not there physically. but we are there in real time. esssentially we are each in our own box, somewhere and are connected to cybespace via our electronic devices. we are there until be shut down our pc, or phone or whatever devices we used.

much like that, we are connected to this world through our physical body. our body is our device, our profile, our avatar. when we die we’ll get disconnected from this world.

I was just trying say that our soul are not in our body. much like we are not in our facebook profile. does that make sense to you?

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8 years ago i started to dream to be a cat breeder. I was very fascinated by the cat fanciers world. But the cost of breeding a purebred pedigree cats is prohibitively expensive. And i decided to write about it since i am so passionately interested in it.

Then came the big wall.

The big wall that divides catlovers into 2 big opposite groups. One is the expensive pedigree breeders and exhibitors, another is the self-sacrificial cat activist that works with stray cats and combats the pets overpopulation problems. I have been sitting on this wall looking at both sides for so long already that it is time i need to choose side.

Generally it is so easy to point fingers and blame the breeders as contributing to the pet overpopulation problems when the culprit really are irresponsible owners who refuse to spay/neuter their cats. Human have preferences. Clearly not everyone fancies a moggy. And it is not wrong refusing to adopt a moggy as we all need to make careful decisions to care for something that will depend on us for the next 15 years or so. In the end it is all about choices.

There is also human population problems where they hardly have enough food, enough clean water, shelters, vaccines… Is it cruel of us when we choose to have our own children instead of adopting theirs? Do we need to stop ourselves from having children because there are too many of them already in this world?

Then is it justified to ask breeders to stop breeding purebred because there is just too many cats in this world?

This never ending question of moral will always lead to hot debates in my head. But i have chosen my side. Can’t stay on the wall for too long. It’s time to move on.

- Posted using my Ngegehness of Telipons…

Location:Jalan Laruh,Kuching,Malaysia

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recently before wordpress 2.9.2 was available, I had upgraded to the previous version which caused my theme to be funny.. there’s an error to the theme that my blog refuse to appear… now i have corrected the error and what a relief! haha.. that’s all about my really quick update!

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oh well, finally i can open my wp dashboard frommy E72. I guess the fault must be the internet connection. Speaking of the devil. I have decided to terminate the lousy, overpriced celcom’s so called broadband.

It’s just sneaky how their office is closed on Sunday. Oh well, i’ll just go thru the hassle of terminating the account rather than pay them anyway.

Well, it’s been a while since i last updated my blog. That’s just it. I’m just not a regular blogger yet. I have too much inhibition to write about my thoughts ad opinions about things so freely.

I might have 2 posts in a day like today when i feel like writing about few stuffs. And i might not be around for months and months.. Well, its about nothing anyway. I don’t really like to write about political stuffs anymore, it’s a headache.

There’s just few unsettling things going on with my life right now, like going thru untreatable nausea and vomiting (like 20 times of course I’m exagerating it’ss more like 6 times daily) since the past 5-6 weeks, being hospitalized for being as dry as ikan masin til my urinary tract is infected, oh well, generally i’m feeling better but my work is a mess. Ah… The torment of a working mother.

Ok, to wrap it all up, my dearest dearest hubby gave me the best birthday present ever, (well he should! Who else have gotten me pregnant in the 1st place?) the ever sophisticated full of fabulosity brand new E72! Heehee… Owh.. This baby is definitely worth it. LOL!

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merujuk kepada entri saya yang berikut

Kelebihan Surah al-Ikhlas

secara jujur nya saya dapat dari email, sebab saya ni jenis malas nak forward email, saya just post dalam blog jer. Tak terfikir plak nak check betul2 dalam kitab sahih Bukhari mya father… (ader ntah brapa volume, tulisan pun kecik2)

so ader tak sesaper bleh bagi tau kepalsuan hadith nie menurut post dalam forum berikut?

http://al-fikrah.net/Forums/viewtopic/p=175639.html

dah babai itu saja.

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Is there no end to celcom’s stupidity? the campaign said umlimited internet with their broadband. but the fine prints said there’s a 5gb cap limit to your data usage. and when you call their careline, you have to listen to a few ringgit worth of minutes of advert about their crappy products before we can actually get through to their agent.

I’d say celcom is practically STEALING our money. argh. stupid. I wish I wish I wish to cancel my subscription with their broadband. That’s monopoly for you. one malaysia crap shit.

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If you ever feel that you are taken for granted, think again. This email moved me. it was written by Mort Fertel.

Let me begin to deal with APPRECIATION in
marriage by explaining a basic human dynamic.

So, what gets your attention? Think
about it. Do you notice the beat of your heart,
the comfort of a hot shower, or the milk in the
refrigerator? My guess is that these things (and
a million other things that are commonplace in
your life) do NOT get your attention. And if they
don’t get your attention, then they don’t get
your appreciation.

When was the last time you said to yourself,
“Thank God my heart is beating.”

After your last hot shower, did you jot a note of
thanks to your local power company? I didn’t.

Did you thank the breadwinner in your family last
time you poured milk in your cereal? Not likely,
right?

Why aren’t we appreciative for the things that
are so essential in our life? Without them we
would be miserable. But as long as we have them,
we don’t even notice.

Imagine this: It’s 1945. You’ve been in a
concentration camp in Auschwitz for 6 years.
During that time, you never had a hot shower, a
meal that didn’t end with you feeling hungry, or
a week when your life didn’t hang in the balance.

Then one day the Russians and the Americans come
marching in and you’re liberated.

Can you imagine your first hot shower? What would
you be thinking? What would you say to the person
who served you your first home cooked meal? Do
you think they’d feel appreciated? Would you find
ways to express your thanks? I don’t think
there’s any doubt that you’d feel enormous
GRATITUDE and that your hosts would feel deeply
appreciated.

What stirs gratitude within us? It’s when we’re
the recipient of UNUSUAL kindness. When I say
“unusual,” I don’t mean extraordinary; I mean
not-usual, uncommon, or infrequent. But when
events become the norm our gratitude slumbers.

Human nature is such that there is an INVERSE
relationship between frequency and appreciation.
The more you get it (whatever “it” is), the more
you expect it, and the less likely you are to
appreciate it. And it makes no difference how
crucial “it” is. The beat of your heart is a
perfect example. There is nothing more crucial in
your life. But there’s also nothing more
frequent. And probably nothing you take more for
granted.

This explains why it’s so common for spouses to
take each other for granted. As the frequency
with which we do things for each other increases
(as the years go by), the experience (and the
expression) of gratitude decreases.

It gets to the point where people peripheral to
the marriage feel more valued than husbands and
wives feel toward each other.

Husbands and wives do more for each other than
anyone else in their lives, but THAT’S THE
PROBLEM! A man’s wife, for example, has rubbed
his neck, kept a stock of his favorite cigars,
and planned their anniversary celebration every
year for 23 years. But he feels and expresses
more gratitude when his new secretary brings him
a gift from her trip to Mexico.

A woman’s husband has cut the lawn, paid the
bills, and taken her away on her birthday every
year for 23 years. But she felt and expressed
more gratitude when Uncle Billy fixed the kitchen
sink.

There’s an irony to this dynamic. We’re so
appreciative when someone does something for us
ONCE, right? So whatever it was that warranted
our gratitude once, shouldn’t it warrant more
gratitude the SECOND time? I mean if it was so
wonderful early in your relationship when your
spouse made a home-cooked meal, then wouldn’t it
be MORE wonderful the second time, and the third,
and the fourth? But it doesn’t work that way,
does it? It’s logical; but it’s not
psychological. The psychology of it is that it
becomes LESS wonderful in your eyes.

Isn’t it amazing that the blessings right in
front of our eyes EVERY DAY are the ones we’re
least likely to see. And the ones that surprise
us every now and then monopolize our gratitude.

This is one of the great challenges of building a
LASTING marriage. We crave appreciation. A
successful relationship depends on it. People
can’t live fulfilling lives without it. But the
longer we’re married, the LESS likely it is to
exist in our relationship. That is, unless you’re
aware of this NATURAL tendency and are PROACTIVE
about defeating it.

One of the local supermarkets in Baltimore gives
free balloons to our children. This is NOT
something they do occasionally nor are the
balloons only given to NEW customers. They do it
CONSISTENTLY. Is it easy for them? No. They have
more than enough tasks on their “to do” list. But
it’s their policy. They plan to make it happen.
It takes a special effort, but demonstrating
appreciation REGULARLY pays off.

Any business can give away freebies to attract
new customers to their grand opening. But the
businesses that thrive LONG TERM are the ones
that learn to express gratitude to their
customers CONSISTENTLY. And that’s NOT natural.
It’ll never be easy. It takes time, effort,
focus, and planning.

It’s easy to be appreciative to occasional guests
in your life who sweep in and do a random act of
kindness. It’s harder with your spouse. But if
your marriage is going to succeed long term, you
have to express gratitude often and check-in with
your spouse periodically to make sure they’re
feeling appreciated.

There’s no easy way to fill your marriage with
appreciation. It will NEVER come naturally. You
have to make it a conscious discipline.

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MashaAllah. and they are labeling Muslims as terrorist. How could they let him stab her 18 times? in court? and how could the police mistaken the husband as the attacker?

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Advice from Dr.Ashutosh Mundkur:

Thanks to media hype about H1N1, several people who trust me have either

approached or called me to advice. The hype in media about the utility

of face masks and N95 respirators as a tool for general protection

against H1N1 can’t be deplored enough.

Yesterday, a friend who listened wanted me to write down briefly what I

advised so that he could tell others in similar words. Hence this short

email to friends whom I have advised recently (and others whom I haven’t

yet).

Please realize that this is not an official advice, especially the one

about face masks or N95. Most N95 respirators are designed to filter 95%

particulates of 0.3µ, while the size of H1N1 virus is about 0.1µ. Hence,

dependence on N95 to protect against H1N1 is like protecting against

rain with an umbrella made of mosquito net.

Tamiflu does not kill but prevents H1N1 from further proliferation till

the virus limits itself in about 1-2 weeks (its natural cycle). H1N1,

like other Influenza A viruses, only infects the upper respiratory tract

and proliferates (only) there. The only portals of entry are the

nostrils and mouth/throat. In a global epidemic of this nature, it’s

almost impossible not coming into contact with H1N1 in spite of all

precautions.

Contact with H1N1 is not so much of a problem as proliferation is.

While you are still healthy and not showing any symptoms of H1N1

infection, in order to prevent proliferation, aggravation of symptoms

and development of secondary infections, some very simple steps – not

fully highlighted in most official communications – can be practiced

(instead of focusing on how to stock N95 or Tamiflu):

1.  Frequent hand-washing (well highlighted in all official communications).

2.  “Hands-off-the-face” approach. Resist all temptations to touch any

part of face (unless you want to eat or bathe).

3.  Gargle twice a day with warm salt water (use Listerine if you don’t

trust salt). H1N1 takes 2-3 days after initial infection in the throat/

nasal cavity to proliferate and show characteristic symptoms. Simple

gargling prevents proliferation. In a way, gargling with salt water has

the same effect on a healthy individual that Tamiflu has on an infected

one. Don’t underestimate this simple, inexpensive and powerful

preventative method.

4.  Similar to 3 above, clean your nostrils at least once every day

with warm salt water. Not everybody may be good at Jala Neti or Sutra

Neti (very good Yoga asanas to clean nasal cavities), but blowing the

nose hard once a day and swabbing both nostrils with cotton buds dipped

in warm salt water is very effective in bringing down viral population.

5.  Boost your natural immunity with foods that are rich in Vitamin C

(Amla and other citrus fruits). If you have to supplement with Vitamin C

tablets, make sure that it also has Zinc to boost absorption.

6.  Drink as much of warm liquids as you can. Drinking warm liquids has

the same effect as gargling, but in the reverse direction. They wash off

proliferating viruses from the throat into the stomach where they cannot

survive, proliferate or do any harm.

7.  All these are simple ways to prevent, within means of most

households, and certainly much less painful than to wait in long queues

outside public hospitals.

Happy breathing!

Best regards,

Dr.Ashutosh Mundkur

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It’s been a while since I last updated my blog. I have to admit that i kinda missed it. really. I miss blog walking, i miss thinking about all the crazy stuffs to write…

now that i have started working… yes. working outside home… I am no longer a stay-at-home-mom or work-at-home-mom… now i am officially a work-outside-home-mom.

sad? not really…

happy? perhaps. a little.

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oh alright.

very happy. satisfied?

anyway, the work is kinda heavy, since I’m still brand spanking new. but the pay is good, the work environment is excellent. well, at least wayy beyond my expectations. I kinda have a good feeling about this job. it just made me realize that previously i didn’t really hate the profession. I was just unhappy at my employer.

oh well, its getting late in the office. with the central air cond switched off, it’s eerily spooky being alone… somehow my office mate went home early today…

well.. see you next post!

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